I hate some people so much.

Hiya! :D So today I had maths with this teacher who is (not being racist) black and he is kinda weird; once he gave me the left handed scissors and i said ''sir i'm not left handed'' and he replied with ''well you look like it'' and i mean like wtaf? Then today he was crying becasue we didn't get the lesson and I mean like what the hell is wrong with you? No offence but you should pull yourself together.

Aside from my teacher there is this boy in my maths class and he got told to give out the textbooks and they fell of the shelf and the teacher was like ''pick them up'' and he replied with ''but they're dirty'' like wtf? he has some friends but we had this learn2learn thing and he was like ''if you will throw that paper around again i shall report you'' to HIS FRIEND omg what even... he's very formal as well once he was like ''sir there is a shattered pen on the floor which is a strong health and safety hazard'' and sir was like ''where is it?'' he replied with ''it is located behind Zara's chair'' LOCATED who even says that anymore...People...

There also was this other girl in English and we were discussing these letters and spretending to be the magazine designers and we were choosing which one will be published and she was just like ''I think Alex's pathetic he just get on with everything'' and then she said that Sam (the not real girl) might commit suicide and then a lot of people laughed and I mean come on. Suicide is a serious matter, like you don't just laugh at it.Then the teacher was saying stuff like ''I've read a lot lately about teenagers commiting suicide and they also explained that suicide is not a choice where you think like oh i'm gonna kill myself but you think it's your only choice becasue of the mental dissorder depression making you sad and upset'' and i didn't agree with thatbecasue depression isn't a mental dissorder becasue it's how you feel not you being crazy and then the bit about sucide being the only choice; it's not like that for a person who is suicidal it seems like the easiest thing to do to escape all the things that cause you to think about commiting or self harm so yeah, I have experiance in this so i would know.

anyway thats it for now
p.s PLEASE PLEASE PLEAAAASSEEE comment what do you think of my  posts so i'll know ok? thanx :3
-Estera x

PE is alright not my favorite but alright!

Hey Hey Hey, I'm so sorry I didn't post anything yesterday but I couldn't go on the laptop cause I was busy until late and I was so tired sorry :/ buuuuuut I'm here now! Ok so today I had PE fourth lesson and we where doing cross country down the river bank and even though I had to leave my friends behind I ran on my own and I got 13 minutes 20 seconds which is really good for me because I'd usually get something like 15 minutes 56 seconds so yeah I'm getting goood ;)

We had history today as well with da crazeh cat ladeh ;) she told me off for singing HSM,One Direction,Miley Cyrus and other songs like What Does The Fox Say? It was funny :D

Today as well I told my friend how I really felt.Well basically, she always ignores me outside of school even when i need her the most just because she's talking to her boyfriend whos 100 miles away and I live like 20 minutes away from her.I felt really bad when i said but she said it's fine and she's sorry and she's gonna do something about it....and then she went offline oh.Well, I bet she'll come back soon.... I hope.She talks to me in school but we can't really talk then becasue theres those other people around us and I don't really want them to know about my personal life.

Anyway thats all for nooooow

hey guys don't be afraid to comment talk to meh! give me some feed back! woo!

-Estera x

Fun Facts about meh ;)

So I had no freaking clue what to write today apart from that Halloween post so i decided I'm gonna do some more facts... I'll do 5 things about me 5 likes and 5 dislikes so 15 things kay? ok here I go

5 things about me ;)

1. I'm from Poland
2. My Birthday is in May
3. My favorite colors are pink,blue and red but red mostly
4. I don't trust people easily 

5 Likes 

1. I like to hang out with my friends
2. I like to listen to music
3. I like to write fanfictions 
4. I like it when someone makes me laugh 
5. I like it when someone tells me my eyes are pretty

5 Dislikes 

1. I hate two faced people
2. I hate it when a friend can't keep a secret
3. I hate going to school
4. I hate it when people stare at you like you just killed someone when you're late for class
5. I hate teachers xD

So thats some of my likes anfd dislikes and stuff about me

Hope you'll know more of me nowwww

-Estera x
 

Halloween.... BOO! lol no xD

Heyyy, so Halloween soon ay? You guys going trick or treating? I'm not... I don't like dressing up as something or someone Idk why but I just don't I think I've grown up becasue when i was like 10 I loved dressing up but I don't now.It's Pumpkin Parade on the 11th October here in England where I live I plan on going with some friends... I have no clue what I'm going to wear. This is the BIGGEST PROBLEM EVER for a girl when you don't know what to wear and you wardrobe is full with clothes oh. But anyway if you don't know what pumpkin parade is it's basically a parade where anyone can walk in it even if you're not doing anything, then it's live performances on stage from local talents and you have loads of stalls where you can buy food, drinks and those colorful sunglasses and other shit like that.

Also, on the 11th it's non uniform at my school and nothing really interesting is happening then tbh it's normal lessons.It's non Uniform in memory of this boy who died of cancer tat used to go to this school.I don't really know what to write about anymore...soo

Thats all for nowwwwww ;)

-Estera x

Crazy Cat Lady....wat

Hey, It's me again ;) So today was a good day tbh with ya; I had English, Double Heath And Social Care and Double History. You might think ''ew history'' but my history teacher is the best ok? she told us her CAT PUSHED HER DOWN THE STAIRS like dafuq? she has 5 cats; Chloe,JayJay, Peter,Cece and Suzie.She's old..... but she's not an old lady with cats she has a 18 year old son and she used to be married as well so yeah.... The only thing that I didn't like it was in my Health and Social class we were discussing Self-Esteem and Self-Image and tbh with you My self esteem is really low.Thank god she didn't tell us to say what we think abut our selfs phew... we just had to do ideas how we could boost someonse self-esteem and self-image...like compliment them and stuff.

I also had to go to the year 9 (9 th grade for all you Americans who don't get the Uk system)office becasue I've been off school for two weeks.It was fine though she basically told me that she had to have this talk with me because of the offsted (inspectors) if it wasn't for them she wouldn't even care about the whole situation.

Ok so thats all from me for now <3

-Estera x

Well a bit about me

Hi,I'm Estera I'm 13, I'm 5'2, I love music and anything to do with it. I spend my life mostly on the internet because I have no social life; I have friends but I just don't go out that much I usually stay in my room.You could say I'm antisocial.I'm your typical fangirl that gets feels,stays up all night wanting to get noticed but I'm also that broken girl who hides her tears behind her smile.I have a normal family consisting of me, my mum , my stepdad, brother and sister (both younger than me)

I decided to make this blog to share my problems and stuff with the people around the world who might read my blog; who might have the same kind of problems and i want to help them with my personal experiance. Trust me I have gone through a lot and i can help

so thats it for today I'll post tomorrow bye bye<3

-Estera x